Sometimes you don’t know it’s coming. You sit there, smiling and enjoying your evening. You’re watching your favorite show again. It’s a good moment. POW!!!!! You want to start crying and yelling at something that you can’t put you finger on. Everything you look at is making you sad and angry. Before you can figure how to deal with it, you suddenly feel like you are trapped and want to crawl out of your skin. You change your TV to 5 different shows because nothing looks good and doesn’t help the trapped feeling. You look around and think, “I should go exercise. I will feel better if I do.” You don’t though because your feelings are just to overwhelming that you count down the minutes before you go to bed.
That is me during any given week, especially if it is close to the end of my cycle. IT SUCKS!!! Right now, I feel anxious and sad and tired and…just moody. Earlier today, I was happy and in a great mood. I don’t know what caused my mood to change, but it did. When I feel down, I get hungry. I ate half of a loaf of garlic bread and made myself sick. Why do I do this to myself?!?! It is a question I can’t answer, but I will probably feel better before the night is over.
I know many of my fellow Cysters (one of the awesome nicknames for women with PCOS) probably feel the same way. Mood changes are one of the “fun” things that is a part of PCOS. These can be caused by hormonal imbalances that causes some other PCOS symptoms like cysts, weight gain, etc. I have to deal with it in my own way, which is often by riding the emotional roller coaster. I also deal with depression, which may also be connected. I don’t take anti-depressants because I hate how I feel on them. I also watch my depression like a hawk and get help when I see it heading to a dark place.
So, why am I blogging about this? Well, it helps me work through it. As I write this, I am beginning to feel less stressed. I am kind of surprised, but blogging about my PCOS experiences has been making me feel better.
Dear reader, if you are like me, how do you deal with your mood swings? Leave a comment or respond to me on Twitter (@SarahDTWater) or Instagram (@sarahdrinksallthewater).