Today is my birthday, and I thought I would do a small update post. I’ve turned 36, and it’s got me thinking about a lot of things. I thought life would be a little different by the time I hit this number, but everyone probably feels the same. I luckily have a wonderful husband, job, and group of family and friends, but with the events and issues of the last 2 years, it still feels like something is missing. I’m having to reexamine all of my goals and the ways I am trying to meet them.
I’ve stopped the fertility treatments indefinitely, and Steve and I are looking into all of our options for adopting. We still hope that I will become pregnant, but after the physical and emotional side effects of treatments, I am taking time. I may not ever have a biological child, and I am coming to terms with that. Therapy is helping with that.
The adoption process is confusing and frustrating. We’re only at the beginning of the process, but jeez, I cannot get clear answers or information about what to do. We are considering all of our options: adopt from foster care, private adoption through an agency, private adoption without agency, etc. Ugh… so confusing. We’ll figure it out.
Here’s what I know. I want to be a mom, and Steve wants to be a dad. We are just going to become those in a way that works for us. We’ll probably be the older parents at our child’s high school graduation, and that’s okay.
While we figure the family stuff out, I need to focus on all aspects of my health and trying to find some balance in my life. When I get that lined up, I’ll let you know. (Maybe write a book and become rich.)
That’s all I have for now. I wish I could write more, but a little information is better than none. At least, I think so.
Until next time, keep drinking the water.